Where am I at?
Well, Life 2.0 has been overly difficult recently.
Anniversary of mums death was tough this year, more so than the first one last year. Don’t know why - still having regular nightmares, I know I should see someone again about depression and nightmares. But I know me, and I won’t.
Additionally, this week I lost my favourite aunt, mums favourite sister, who helped look after her in her last few weeks of cancer. My aunt succumbed to a terminal lung disease.
So despite having a great couple of weeks beforehand, this last week or so has been dreadful diet/exercise-wise. But it’s over now, and I’m not waiting until Monday to restart.
It (re)started today.
I’ve now got fridge full of healthy, unprocessed food, have started making stir fries, soups, all sorts of veggie & lean meats, fruit & fruit smoothies, really will be focussing, tracking on MyFitnessPal.
As of this AM, my weight is 283 lbs. I gained six pounds since last Saturday, so to lose three & cut that horrible gain in two is something at least. 249 lbs is the interim target. 165 lbs is the ultimate target.
Waist is now 48.5 inches. It started at 56inches, and has been as low as 42 in the past three years. Ass is now 53 inches. It started at 59 inches, and has been as low as 46.5 in the last three years. Some work to do…
Betting on being lighter!
Have started a diet bet - I do well on those for the most part, but they’re only a month, so I can go off the rails afterwards. This new one is to lose 10% weight in SIX months - EASY!!!
Diabetes - still dodging it…
Got a glucose monitor at home now - still in the green, albeit not as good a fasting glucose level as start of 2012 - back then it was a great 4.6 mmo/L, now it’s 5.9, on the upper end of normal, but still in the green. I’ll check that perhaps weekly initially. As long as it’s 3.6 to 6.0, we’re good. 7 or above might indicate diabetes, would require further tests.
Running out of things to wear, have just split my good black trousers, having to use washer every day, not good….. had a recent funeral, and I’ve no shirts I can tuck into trousers that fit me. This will change.
Got bike connected to turbo trainer again, and will be riding after this. First time in a year. This, will hurt.
Have restarted weight training again,. at home. This is good.
Have signed up for gym again, when I was at hospital saying good bye to my aunt. Will get down there tonight, do some rowing and more biking, as my achilles has been sore for weeks.
Still walking, tracking on Fitbit, but not my normal 12k a day. It’s well down, due to injury.
Measuring my lungs now, what with a few family members suffering from lung-related diseases. Readings of 640 L/min are pretty good!
Still working out which software to use - will test them tonight.
It’s gone. I don’t like me at this size and shape, and don’t respect myself for how unhealthy I’ve allowed myself to be. So can’t expect others to.
Was doing this for a while, but stopped. Restarting tonight. Also will get to bed early enough from now on. Lack of sleep affect everything.
There you go… a blog. I’ve not blogged in a while, so even this is a positive step. :)